it's 7am and i'm still not sleeping. this is the third night in a row where i've been up past 5am. grr.. luckily i have the next 3 days off!! :) whooo hooooo...
i was watching Oprah a couple weeks ago, and at the end of the show, O asked her panel of experts, "what's the best advice you've ever received?".
everyone had something to say but only one has stuck in my head since. it was actually a quote from Maya Angelou - "When people show you who they are, believe them the first time." i've been thinking since, how many times have i overlooked or been in denial about something in someone but then kicked myself for it when i realized it was a trait they had demonstrated in the past but i just didn't want to see it. Is it just too naive to have hope or faith in people? do people really change? it seems like an easy thing to do, but when there is emotion or a friendship involved, is it really that easy to not try to find the good?
i'm always quite amazed at all the things i learn from kids - especially mine. it's funny how their lives parallel my life often and they seem to make the right choices and bounce back and sometimes i stuggle and stuggle until i see that they've already moved on from the same situation. it's amazing how they see things in people that we as adults do not see.
i used to work at my dad's office and there was one guy there that always gave me the creeps. there was just so many things that gave me a bad vibe about him, but i kept on trying to brush it off. he had never done or said anything to make me feel that way, it was just something that i couldn't put my finger on. one day sama (who was still too young to speak at the time) came into the office and from about 20-30 feet away, she saw the back of this man at the back of the room and starting screaming. he hadn't even turned around at that point but something about him just made her freak out. she refused to enter the office and i ended up leaving with her. he was clearly the cause but i still don't know why. the strange thing was that this guy gave everyone the creeps. weird.
my ass: i just got out of the shower and i looked for any residual bruising or markings and kevin, since you plan on extending my technicolour dream ass "the appropriate courtesy" the next time we meet, i thought i'd give a quick update on it. what was a black, bluey-green, red mass has now turned into a little pink ring. hardly noticable without close inspection... not that that's an invitation or anything.. ;) hmmm for some reason this made me think about kurt's tattoo.. what was the real reason you put it there?
are either of you still reading this or are congee99 and willo my only fans?
i think i'm almost done my christmas shopping. only have a couple more to go. did i mention in my 99 list how much i love shopping?? it's not even so much about buying things but more about a really really great score. (you mean, i can get that thing i almost paid $25 for two days ago for $2.00 today?? are you kidding me? i'll take 6) .. yes.. that really happened... :)
i was at a chrismas party the other night and heard these two things within minutes of each other. i know both people from way back and for about the same amount of time.... one said, "wow, you look younger and younger each time i see you." and the other said, "as you mature you look more and more beautiful" ... i look younger AND more mature at the same time??? ugh.. what am i doing wrong?
i think i'm starting to babble. 7:37am. i have to be up by 9. i'm going to sleep. i'll review this in the morning to edit.
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know? - keane